You have been "Through the Mill", as they say. A hip replacement with no family care is NOT something anyone would like. Three weeks? Awful, I would say. Just a few times for me in ER with understaffing (everywhere) was enough to bring me to " I can't take it anymore". ( Lots of interpretations for that one). I was almost disoriented when my husband passed, and I was only 76. He was 4 years younger and only ill for less than four month. I agree, going out is the hardest. Sometimes writing how you feel helps in a private $1.00 Steno pad. Don't forget the phone. Take a survey...be creative. ( I might get in trouble for that one) My Best to you!