Just your response has helped, thanks Chris. I sometimes forget to look at the little positive things, and they are there and have helped me through a lot of tough times in my life. I finally found someone else who gets excited about who shows up at the bird feeder (I have flying squirrels too)! I am very fortunate to have a husband who pushes me to keep looking and learning. It was good for me to hear it from another person. I'm not sure what my next step will be, today it is going to be trying to go for a walk in an indoor facility in our area. I think the help I need is to stay active, and that's on me. Thanks so much again for the inspiration, it helped me during a bad moment. Chris