Sometimes the person who is terminally ill are going through and grasping at anything to save their life. Their emotions are sad, happy, lonely, fearful and sometimes denial and they question why.

I know it is hard on the spouse neither can understand what the other is going through unless they have been in the others shoes.

I am sorry and empathize...

It is hard to reach out for answers and find few strives have been made in the kidney failure. Most dont know until late they have kidney impairment, which is devistating for all.

The labs are constantly changing and most likely he is doing all he can with negative effect.

There are online support groups where he and or you can connect with others. No man is an island, you are not alone.