I did not choose reconstruction, and despite the fsct that there sre some gradual adaptations to my wardrobe, I have not had any second thoughts about that choice. There are some excellent discussion threads going on right now, actually, about this topic--either on this forum (search for the topic of reconstruction) or on a private FB group called Flatties Unite (which I have been reading lots of lately). Sorry, I can't remember which has been the more valuable to me lately, though both have been high in my reading focus recently. There are LOTS of us who are choosing to forgo what sounds to me like a gamble with ongoing surgeries and alien substances inside our bodies for what--appearance? I guess I've never had that much of my sense of self based on being shapely! I want to focus on getting PAST this whole thing and on with my life!! Keep me in the loop on how you are doing! Once past the drain situation, things will get better. You are in my thoughts!