Thank you - I admit I have felt like it, been close to it, and didn't think I had any other options at times, but I have never quit anything I've taken on or anyone in whom I saw one ounce of good and I love all my kids more than they are capable of knowing until they have kids of their own. Out of all 6, the second is lost to the world right now but not to Ole Dad, though he has nothing to do with me, in time I pray he'll get out of the grips in which he is currently bound and see the true light. He'll see Dad waiting also. My oldest is 31 as of October 29 and an absolute gem, a great young man, as are the my middle two and youngest sons. My one daughter is a fighter who can still hold her own against all of her brothers and a beautiful young woman inside and out. So while death knocks at everyone's door eventually, I am not ready, and I promise you @christiana, knowing what we know for you to make the effort and wish me well, to not ever give up, your words mean so much more, as if you've raised the window to your souls and allowed everyone a small peak because you haven't the words to describe the goodness within. It means so much, thank you