@pjoy422 - in my state it's legal to grow up to 4 plants at a time; in my very placid neighborhood, there are 4 people who grow, plus me - all within 1 linear block. I'm the youngest grower at 52.

It does save money. It is a chunk of work (I don't use pesticides, so I have to hand pick the dang caterpillars off....) and October is very busy with processing and curing... but I will do it every year. I know what is in my weed!

When I went on klonopin, my shrink was very worried about benzo dependence. I could honestly tell her that I don't care about that. To me, its a necessary part of functioning every day, and if I have to stay on a dose forever, I am fine with it. It's a quality of life thing.

My shrink and I talk about it frequently, and I take as little as possible without reducing by more than .5 mg at a time. You can titrate in tiny doses - take a tiny nibble of a tab, for example, to make the titration slow. The lower you get, the less you reduce your dose by. I track my klonopin use very closely!

I went through unsupported withdrawal off pramipexole in 2020. My Dr thought I was on too low a dose to have withdrawal, and i didnt know better; it was before I found my shrink. Those were the worst 10 days of my life - I've read that dopamine agonist withdrawal is akin to heroin withdrawal (not sure i trust that factoid, but my brain broke during withdrawal) - and I'll never take a dopamine agonist again.... so I understand the choice to never take a benzo again.

Unfortunately, we're all stuck deciding which of the bad choices we'll pick. Having rare, undefined, or unglamorous health issues is very hard. We have the unenviable position of being beyond current science, and it's all guesswork...for everyone involved. Doctors should be honest about that so we can make our own choices and be aware of the risks.