You have to stay positive.
Stress and negativity doesn’t help. Try boosts and add protein powder to juices for exemple. It will be a journey but it will be ok.

i can understand your fear-i went for pet scan yesterday and my results at 430pm was that my esophageal cancer is at stage 2-so it did not spread from tumor to any other organs-i start chemo (once a week) on 11/23/2023 and i start radiation (5 times a week) on 11/21 FOR SIX WEEKS UNTIL 1/3/2023...2 to 4 weeks later i have a 7 hr surgery to remove tumor...oncologist is confident of a 50 to 70% chance of curing-THERE IS A PLAN-that makes the fear less overwhelming-my job is to stay active (walk, workout, ect), get 90 grams of protein a day, meditate, pray, REST......most of all believe that my oncology team will do their best to help me get through this--acceptance is the key, but that is a goal of mine-i am not there yet-BUT I AM DETERMINED ...