Well I was talking about possibly being too far down the rabbit hole for the PRC program . Today didn’t help . Today was my main application video appointment . I had to cancel my pain program appt because I was in too much pain. Talk about irony ! . My neuralgic pain flares are like trigeminal neuralgia or a glossopharygeal “ brain freeze “ . You’re being zapped so it’s not like a pain you can push to the back of your mind with mindfulness or other visualization techniques .. it’s a non functional situation . They form the basis of my struggle. I have great concern about how I’m going to be able turn up every morning 745 am having had breakfast and having travelled on a shuttle. The rest of the program is totally within my grasp .. but their words about arriving each morning “ regardless of the level of pain “ seem to exclude patients like me . Perhaps I should be looking for some kind of residential program as they seem quite firm on this point . I’m all for a bit of tough love to motivate people to get up and at ‘em but somehow fear that I am going to fall between the cracks . I guess I’ll discuss this when im able to reschedule my appointment. I hope they have a contingency plan .