@colleenyoung Where do I start? Depression deprives one of any kind of dignity and life. It does bring shame and the inability to think clearly. Have made numerous attempts at seeking help (hospitalizations, medications, therapies like ECT, EMDR, talk therapy), in order to get better but nothing has worked and return to the depths of despair which is an all too familiar place. Depression has deprived me of a way to properly support myself, but instead has put me into a system of financial assistance. There is what I call a “doughnut hole” not poor enough for poverty and further financial assistance but barely making it month to month. Have tried reaching out for other mental health services like case worker, etc. but as with everything else a waiting list. I can go on and on and not really sure if I’m making much sense these days. Add to the list of just having had eye surgery and not sure how to pay upcoming bills. Overwhelmed to say the least. My apologies for this rambling.
I thank you for reaching out and listening.