@stsopoci It's difficult, isn't it, when these feelings seem to pop up out of the blue! Sometimes I wonder what the trigger was, what sense was alerted to bring on these moments. Something I smelled, or noticed, a passing noise? There are times I will take a few minutes to try and figure it out, to ease my mind. Other times I just work on convincing myself it is just a passing moment, and will not stick around long.

Be gentle on yourself. Yesterday I had to do exactly what you said, watch my reaction and what almost slipped out of my mouth. It would have been a surprise to the person who would have been the target of it, and would have been an embarrassment to me in a more "normal" mood.
Ginger