@johneckenrode11 Understanding our mental health issues can be a life-long challenge, and I think it is not unusual to move between different situations.

Here is a link to Cleveland Clinic's discussion about bipolar disorder, which made me really think! https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/9294-bipolar-disorder

From Healthline is an article that points out specific differences between depression and bipolar disorder: https://www.healthline.com/health/bipolar-disorder-vs-depression

Have you had a professional assessment to determine what or if you are dealing with any of these conditions? It would go a long ways in helping you understand what you are dealing with. I know for me, having a definite diagnosis helped me tremendously!
Ginger