Fellow panic/anxiety attack survivor here.
I have them during the night when I am stressed about something. I wake up with my arms up in the air, bent at my elbow! Sleeping in that position is a clear sign that I’m over thinking about something.

I realize that I don’t have the exact same feelings as you do, but I can tell you that there is hope for a better future.

May peace and blessings be yours today and always. 🌻