I’m so sorry Covid has affected your life like this. It’s like an alien demon taking over your body. I react the same way you do when I’ve gotten sick. I totally freak out, too. I recently had a lung infection that’s lingering and I’m now worse so I think it’s forever. Thank you for your support. For the well-being of all of us, I hope research finds real treatments with positive outcomes for us. Good luck to you and try to stay in good spirits. I think being grateful for what we do have helps.