I am sorry you have this tough road to follow; I was there almost ten years ago. I think Alpaca was too And here we are, ten years later.
You are in the best hands in this country That in itself should give you peace of mind.
It is going to be tough though. You will need all your will power, faith, love and perseverance
We are here to help you all the way through
Every case is different and we might not be able to understand the specifics; but we have been in your shoes and we received support from others like us and here we are to support you now!