@chuck406 I hear ya and share in that frustration!! I decided to avoid the opioid route for now and get a spinal cord stimulator implanted instead, in a few weeks actually (trial first, then the real deal). I am not suicidal either, but I can seriously relate to wanting constant, torturous pain to finally end. I'd cut my left arm off in a second if it was offered to me. I'm tired of being so nauseous all the time too. But, grateful for the journey and how far I've come. Looking forward to a much brighter future! Stay strong, friend!