Thank you for your responses. Looking at you is like looking at me my partner is 17 years my senior. I am 65 with PN in my feet and lower legs. It is difficult to be vain in this state. I fully understand where you come from in what you say. I was very taken up with my appearance but no longer feel the need. I care for my partner deeply and worry for his health as well as my own. It's a tall order to have this mess I feel we are in. Despite that we have to move as much as we can even if it's little steps. I did a like if ironing yesterday and felt goid. This morning I was very anxious and shaky because when I start to think I shudder to think about what the future actually holds......