@auntieoakley thanks for your reply. Yes, I am safe in terms of my mental health status. I’m highly functional, but it’s just the way I’m rolling through it. I’m not myself…. Emotions are still rocking. I have spoken to a psychologist, and I’m doing ok. ….. but I’m not myself…. Sad, angry, scared. Everything heightened. It’s like my nerve endings are worn out. It feel like my body chemistry is off. When I had my hysterectomy in the midst of breast cancer (bc there were cells turning in my uterus), that was rough chemically. That began to settle after about 4 months, but I have been experiencing this longer term “rewiring” I call it. It’s like my body has to learn to live without a constant flux of cortisol from all the stress I was under. I’m not in fight-or-flight mode anymore, but my body was used to that for about two years…… so it’s trying to navigate the new normal.

I’d consider medications, but I react to much. So…. Trying to do what I can naturally (sleep, exercise, diet), and just give it time.