Steve,

You need to give it a rest. Not to trivialize your situation at all, but you really blow things out of proportion. Instead of waiting to die you need to live your life. There are many posters on here that truly have dire situations. Your paranoia is palpable. It's unhealthy to respond the way you do to test results. I would recommend that your next medical visit is to a mental health professional to help with your obvious anxiety. When I was first diagnosed with CAC over 1000 several years ago I found that some cognitive therapy and some meds worked wonders in getting my head around the situation.