Anne, I just wanted to say your story is very inspiring and I am sure it has helped several people. God does have a plan for us. We just need to be patient and listen. And in the meantime try to remain as positive as one can. So important to think positive and make ourselves get up, move, and create a space for us to thrive.
I also have depression and other problems, but we have to be thankful for what the Lord gives us even if we do not always understand.
God bless you.