Rant away!! Sometimes that is just what we need, and this is a safe place for that.
I can certainly understand your fear of surgery after what you went through, but if they need to take it…………………I know it would be scary, but I would find it preferable to remaining in “what if” mode.. I find it a lot scarier, constantly wondering if it is growing again. Relate these fears to your surgeon, I found my surgeon to be pretty understanding about fear. I would also also think they would want to avoid terrible surgical complications.
I think you have covered your bases for second opinion. I am waiting with you for some more understanding of this report, and I have all my fingers and toes crossed for some good news. 💕
Did you put that call in or are you patiently waiting?