Oh, @kimann , our journeys can be so taxing. . . I'm sorry you've had to go through this again. I'm glad to hear you are back at work, and feeling better physically. And what a boost that your hair is growing back. :). I remember my spirits lifting when mine began to fill in.

I understand putting a smile on. . . we almost think we have to wear one, for others' benefit, and sometimes for our own. It can be good medicine for our soul to try to smile, especially when it is in response to focusing on those things that are good, true, honorable, and praiseworthy. Getting our mind in the game is most of the battle . . . and the smiles follow. I just love it when I have a good day, forgetting about the cancer.

The only thing certain for me is remembering that God holds my days. When I focus on that, I can settle on the inside - at least for a time. Bouts of infection, fatigue, and healing scars all remind me of where I've been and that things are not the same as they were before. It's a process of letting all that go. . . . one that I'm still working on. In the meantime, it helps to talk with and listen to others. I'm grateful for a safe space to share these thoughts with those who understand.

Have a great day @kimann