Thank you for your comments @astaingegerdm I do understand the people tiring of listening. . . . I've made a point to not speak of the journey to those close to me for that reason - and I think to my detriment. Seeking out a therapist who deals with those after cancer might be a really good idea. We live in a small, rural area, so this is not readily available - but perhaps telehealth might be a good alternative. Balance will happen. 🙂 it's just the getting there again.