Going back & rereading this segment of our discussion, I'm reminded of how when I DO try, once again making the inexorable effort YET ONCE AGAIN, the feeling of accomplishment dissolves into the ether, and even the memory of the good feeling isn't enough to make it any easier, any smoother or any different from t h e last time....the parable & vision of Sysepheus pushing the interminably burdensome boulder up the mountain, only to have it roll back down - & often flatten you as it returns to its starting position, if not further behind than the last time.....Grrrr! And Arrrrgggh!