Oh, my dear! What a loss you've suffered. I am so sorry. Honestly, I am continually surprised at how hard these past three years have been for people, and on top of a pandemic, too. I'm glad you find comfort and hope in your faith, and I also hope you have friends that you can depend on. One of the cliches about hard times that I found to be true is that you find out who your friends really are. This is not to be feared, but to be grateful for (at least in my opinion). And now you have this group as virtual friends, so don't forget that we're here.