@klsmidwestmom Welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect, and please do sit with us for a cuppa tea or coffee, or glass of lemonade. Would you like a cookie to go along with it?

I certainly understand the helpless feeling, not knowing what might be found. Getting yourself worked up won't help you relax, or sleep at night, does it? And you have these other people in your life to focus on, too, right? How can you get through the next couple of weeks, when all your energy and thoughts are on the upcoming procedure and what they might find...

Think about what made you investigate this in the first place. Something doesn't "feel right". That's not bad; it shows you know yourself well. Trust your gut. Trust your doctors. Please don't be doing the "Dr. Google" thing. The tests or procedures they will do for you will determine what is going on. I understand the idea to be prepared for the worst news, but you are worrying yourself too much. As @riflemanz64 said, you will be given a sedative for the endoscopy. Each step in the process is just that, a step.

Deep breath. And, again. We'll walk with you through this.
Ginger