@graysea I like your positive self talk and personal mantras. It sounds to me like you are doing a pretty good job despite some bumps in the road and will persevere.

I'm sorry you were so unlucky. Having a support system as you do with your husband and doctor are a blessing.

Here is one of my favorite mantras...

"We cannot direct the wind
But we can adjust the sails."
~ Dolly Parton

I adopted it right after graduation from the Mayo Pain Rehab Center. Mindset is everything....you got this!