Marilyn sorry for your loss no words can fulfill the emotional void that you are feeling for not being able to see the face when you get up in the mornings but you must have beautiful memories of the 59 years of togetherness maybe if you think about those happy times it might help you have been through two traumatic events a serious operation of hip replacement and the passing away of your husband so in my opinion talking about him praying as well as some sort of grief counselling may help a little bit my prayers are with you