Shortly after my husband died I had a complete hip replacement - alone. I really did think I would die that first month, but as you an see I didn't. So just hang in there and you will get through it even though it will not be a bed of roses. I have 2 children both far away, but only 1 is supportive. Because of all that happened I was not able to make arrangements for his internment. But I have started therapy and have been able to begin the process. Then there are all the "firsts" you have to go through. His first birthday sent me into hysterics. At the end of this month would have been our 60th wedding anniversary. A friend and I are going to lunch and then I don't know. Then, of course, the first year of being without him. I have been lucky in my choice of therapist. If you can, you should try it. Because I haven't yet fully recovered from my hip replacement I don't go about very much. But it is getting better. And when/if the weather gets cooler I will make an effort to at least walk a bit. I think all we can do is grit our teeth and hang on for the ride. Good luck.