I was 62 at the time. I hadn't even heard of the test but a doctor friend told me about it and suggested I take it. I was in pretty good shape but since heart disease runs in my family I thought maybe I'll get a score of 100 or even 150 .
I was devastated when I got the results back. Just like you I thought I could die any day or any moment. I wondered, with a score that high, how was I still alive. Apparently, the plaque was building in my arteries for decades and I had no idea (maybe my score was 397 when I was your age, 42, who knows). Like you, I was obsessed. It was the uncertainty of not knowing if something terrible, some doom, was just around the corner that really freaked me out.
What I did was I started taking Prozac for about 6 months. I needed to get a grip, a boost, and that really helped reduce my anxiety.
It's been about 3 years since my test results and I'm ok now.
You had asked in a previous post if there were any positives. Well, maybe. I've made the lifestyle changes and I think I'm now the healthiest I've been in my entire life.