Keep your friends very close and stay as active as you can possibly stay. Keep checking on new meds to help out. We are all on your side and feel your pain and suffering.

@linamend Ah, the big question! I bet most of us have been where you are. Even in the darkest of times there is a little corner that is brighter. Grab onto that, and slowly make that bright spot bigger. Just a little something positive. A bird who does something to make you smile. A new little wildflower that wasn't there yesterday. The neighbor's dog wagging its tail at you for no reason. A cloud formation that makes you pause as you figure out what it is.

Many times we have to fight to get out of our own way. It may not be easy, it may take more work on some days than others. But the effort can be so rewarding! Make a list, write it down, of the things that put a smile on your face or a lightness in your heart, today. Look at that list later today, and tomorrow. Add to that list whenever you can. I'm not saying it is easy, because some days it's really not! But I am saying the effort to look for a positive can be life-changing.
Ginger

The most incredible thing is that we are all extremely unique mentally, physically and spiritually. Please don’t give up trying to find and work on finding a less painful life. You can do this!! We are on your side!! We can not give you the answer to a better life but we can tell you that the journey is daily with many changes and adjustments to make it better. It’s worth the time trying. You are precious and will succeed at making it happen.