I am sorry to have brought back those awful memories for you. If it makes you feel somewhat better, my surgery was a complete success.
How were you able to overcome your anxiety/depression without medication? I understand why you did it. You have to be a very strong person to wrestle with it as long as you have and come out of it. I admire you for that because I think it is a more difficult journey than the surgeries you are about to face. I wish you the very best as you continue to a full recovery without complication, physical or mental.