My pain is constant and increases from physical activity. I cannot however stay still and just wither away and die. I do things and then suffer the pain and then do things and then suffer the pain. Part of my problem is that I never know how much of what is going to cause how much pain. Sometimes it seems I do more and expect alot of pain and the pain results are less than expected. Other times I think well did that and the resulting pain was this. So, this activity seems a lot less so the pain will be tolerable. Not always the case. In fact, sometimes I am not even sure what I did, and I find the pain increases. "Dammed if I do Dammed if I don't" as the saying goes. What I miss is any real substantial method or medicine for relief for when the pain is horrible and debilitating to the point of making life miserable. Unfortunately, due to the "Opioid epidemic". And the reclassification of hydrocodone to equal heroin, which subsequently has proven to resolve nothing. There seems to be no substantial relief for those of us who are in the 10% of drug abusers/ addicts' who continue to find a way to kill themselves. So, I suffer and cry and feel like a burden and fight off depression. Somehow that's just the way it is. Acceptance I understand is the last phase before death. Take that to the bank. Oh, yea most of are barely scraping by now that we can barely move due to the pain. Keeping it real.