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Anxiety/Depression after spinal fusion surgerySpine Health | Last Active: Jun 29, 2022 | Replies (7)
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@artsy6013 You're not alone. I also experienced intense anxiety related to spine surgery, but my anxiety was before the surgery, not after. I was able to work through all the reasons that I had anxiety from my experiences in growing up, and for me those fears were rooted in how I thought about things, and problems that were never resolved. I had to tell myself to stop reacting like I did as a child when I had no choices. I am in control of my health decisions and I advocate for myself now.
I would ask you to keep a journal of what you are thinking about when you feel anxiety. What are your first thoughts when you wake up that are triggering for you? While you are compiling a list of thoughts, start writing another list of questions that you want to ask yourself asking why you feel this way? Are you recognizing a familiar pattern? What experiences have you had in your life that give you the same feelings? Is this so automatic that it happens before you think about why it's happening? Is it a sense of loss of control of choices? or because of surgery your life will change? Is it OK to have something that needed fixing and isn't perfect anymore? Is it the change? Do you feel like you are being judged?
I can tell you, that when you dive into exploring the "why" and "how" you feel the way you do and write it down, you can see a pattern emerge. You don't need to show that list to anyone. After you understand "why", you can ask yourself "how" can I see this from a different viewpoint? Did you believe something that influenced your thinking, and maybe it didn't matter after all? How can you think differently about it?
I would also like to invite you to look at another discussion about overcoming fear. This is probably the most important thing I have done to change my life for the better is to address, understand, and overcome my anxiety about medicine, and that would not have happened if I didn't have to make a choice about spine surgery. There is a video at the beginning of the discussion of a podcast where I am interviewed about overcoming fear with creativity.
Have you considered a counselor that could help you with your questions and how to re-frame things? Did the video in the discussion generate and ideas for you?