I am sorry to hear your diabetes diagnosis has become so overwhelming to you.

My husband is diabetic, was diagnosed nearly 30 years ago. At first it was very difficult for him because we had young children and parents to care for as well as 2 careers. At some point he decided to manage it as best he could and live life to the fullest, and he has. He always pays close attention to his blood sugar, carbs and diet, but does indulge in very limited cheating. With medication he has maintained his AIC below 7 all these years, stayed at a healthy weight and is just now seeing a bit of neuropathy in his feet. All while living "normally" -.we just adopted his healthy diet for the family. If we overdo one day, we are extra careful for the next few. In fact, my allergies to wheat, rye and tree nuts are harder to manage than a diabetic diet. And if I cheat or accidentally eat those things, I gat quite ill for 2-3 days. But that's just life.

I think maybe you might try to find a good dietitian to help you establish a healthy, easy diet. And figure out how to make many of your favorite foods in more healthy ways..

We are on a road trip and our cooler contains protein shakes, carrots, oranges, unsalted pistachios, water and hard cheese. He has low carb keto cookies for a treat, I have a few dark chocolate pieces. We don't feel deprived except when we can't find anywhere to eat except fast food when traveling.