I have received a lot of feed back on this and I must be honest, I do not like it. Right away everyone assumed I was on the brink of suicide. I am not. It was the way I felt AT THAT TIME. We all say things that we don't really mean. People get angry and say I'll kill that so and so. But they don't go out and kill them. At least sane people don't and I consider myself sane. And why did everyone glom on to those words? Didn't they see my other words where I said I gave my son my solemn promise that I would not harm myself? So, yes, I do appreciate all the concern but I wish they had read the entire post.