@thisismarilynb I am so glad to see you posting this morning. Do you see/read the support you are receiving from us here?
Was the person you were seeing for therapy someone you "clicked" with? Can you do telehealth or zoom with them? Are there friends or neighbors near you to reach out to? Take a deep breath, and do go to the library today! The power of those books all lined up, waiting for you to explore them, can't be denied!
As for your granddaughter's wedding, remember the refusal to include you is about them, not about you. Heaven only knows what might have set them off. Send a lovely card, a small gift, to rejoice in that union, and let them know you are thinking about her. On that day take yourself out for a nice meal, and an adventure.
What will you do today to bring a smile to your face?
Ginger
Am not sending anything. Not only did my husband die, but so did her grandfather. Never received a word of sympathy. When I went through the hip replacement, never received a word asking how I was doing. So no, I will recuse myself from that event. I am going to the library and getting books. Hopefully if I make good choices some will bring a smile to my face.