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Yes, I have seen the posts and have appreciated them tremendously. Today I am not doing so well because my cleaning person did not show up. I got in contact with the friend who told me about her and she can't get into contact with her. The thought of going through all that hassle trying to find another cleaner is daunting. But the weather is nice today. So maybe later I will take a little walk outside with my walker. Go the mailboxes and pick up whatever mail is in there. I do know that some days I seem to be fine and others not so much. I guess there is some trigger that makes me think about what was and will never be again and I turn into a watering pot. Need a lot more time. But I am trying to reply to each post to thank them.

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I remember some of the feelings you are experience expressed by my mom when my dad passed away. She used to say, "I know I can do it myself, but I don't want to." It was really hard to take on those tasks and responsibilities that were once the domaine of my father. I get it.

I hate the way hassles like finding a cleaner can seem like mountains to climb. The dust bunnies will wait (as @IndianaScott likes to say). Tomorrow is another day to set to the task of finding a new cleaner. You want someone who is responsive.

Good for you for grabbing your walker and getting out to pick up the mail! The satisfaction of doing something helps.