Hello Barb, I don't give advice, but I am willing to share a bit of information about what helped me when I was dealing with long term (4 months) major depression. Writing regularly was a start that helped me to identify where some of my anxieties and fears were coming from. This took me months to do, but it gave me a place to start in addition to counseling and a group support. You are not alone in dealing with depression, and I can identify with how debilitating severe depression can be.