Thank you, so I. I'm actually thinking of moving to Oregon on the southern coast where I can be at peace, walk on the beach, watch the whales swim by while crying their haunting songs then spending time in the redwoods where I scattered my daughter's ashes 17 years ago. I don't know how much fight I have left in me at this point. I know that they will allow you to end your life with dignity there if you have a fatal disease. It seems that I now have 2. Acceptance is what I need to find because I have 9 beautiful grandchildren whom I adore and wanted more time to make memories with. I don't want their memories of me to be contaminated with sights of me sick and dying. I just want so much to encourage them to be kind to others always, to speak to people while watching their smiles and the joy in their eyes. No texts convey that kind of humanity and fill your own heart. They have a difficult path ahead, I had hoped to be there for them. I'm a scientist and fear a darkness that will push us backwards. I am one who could have taught people to survive and win a new world of hope. that's so frustrating to know that all of my knowledge will be lost to the world but the Elon's and Bezos will fly around in their ships preparing to escape the chaos and destruction that they engineered as they amassed their wealth.

I'm sorry for being so morose. Go look at the night sky and try to see the Northern lights. They are stunning. I saw them as a child in northwestern Iowa on the farm where I grew up.

I will live to fight/endure another day...

Professor M