@rosa66
I wouldn't worry about the side effects.
It's not going to do any good to expect the worst. Be positive. If I worried about all the potential negative side effects of anticonvulsant drugs which I was on five different ones at a time which probably had a combined total of 1,000 side would probably have a placebo effect. if you start a new medication just think you’re not going to have any side effects. I took five different seizure medications at a time on several different occasions and the only side effects I ever had were speech and balance problems and neuropathy at least that I can think of now but hardly any side effects from all the hundreds of thousands of medication should I have taken. it’s not worth the effort it takes to worry about stuff like that. Besides the medication do you have a counselor, that would probably be a big help. you can control moral depression and anxiety than you probably think.
Take good care of yourself,
Jake