At this point you can’t focus on side effects of these powerful drugs. The meds have to be stronger than the cancer. The list of drugs I’ve been on were staggering and potentially lethal. But my husband and I joked about “Better living through chemistry” (my husband is a chemical engineer). I have a newfound respect for big pharma. Without the science, research and drugs I wouldn’t be here. I’m now cancer free and off all my meds. Though you never could have convinced me 3 years ago that I’d ever feel normal again. Will you give the drugs a chance?