Hello @hockeyguy13 and welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect. The Connect community understands that you may be in a difficult place and we want you to know that we are here for you. This is a safe place to talk as you feel the need. I also want you to know about the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (https://988lifeline.org/). Please call or text them if you are feeling threatened by your feelings of self-harm.
- Call or text 988

Are you having suicidal thoughts now?