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Just diagnosed with Endometrioid Adenocarcinoma: What to expect?
Gynecologic Cancers | Last Active: Dec 12, 2022 | Replies (239)Comment receiving replies
I somehow missed this message earlier. Yes, I've been home for about a month. I just wish that this was over. I feel so selfish because so many have been handed a far worse diagnosis. I just feel like my life has crumbled and I am buried in the rubble. I want to feel grateful and blessed, but I also feel cheated and punished. A friend of mine told me I was blessed with this. I am sorry I don't see how I was blessed to go through this.
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@cmb2022 While your friend was likely trying to be helpful I can see how you don't feel blessed when you look at your life right now. If one more person told me "I'm sorry" I thought I was going to scream. It's only been a month and you are adjusting to such big changes in your life.
I know what you mean about feeling others have it much worse. When I read on Connect what others have been through or are going through I often feel guilty. What do I have to complain about? But it's not a contest of who has the worst diagnosis or treatment regimen. You have yours and I have mine. We just have to do what we do. So do they.
Did you make appointment yet for that massage?
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I am so sorry that a 'friend' told you that you were 'blessed' with cancer. We all have to make decisions about who we share our diagnosis with, and I want to encourage you that the choice is completely yours. Do not feel obligated to share it with anyone you have a hesitation about: better to have fewer, but more salient, supports than folks saying things that are not helpful due to their own discomfort. All those feelings (grateful, cheated, punished) are par for the course: allow yourself to have them, and find one person to share them with. Or, just share them with us! We know! 🙂 Wishing you comfort during this extremely trying time.