Hi Im 63 and I had the Top part of my Pancreas Removed as it was Cancerous 2021 its been a year and they said i may have only 6 mth ...... I go back for scans to see if it has come back every 90 dy....It has Been straight up HELL as now I have Sugar Diabities.All this is New for me and It had me thinking that ANY time I could be leaving Here every time i have to take a creon pill to say the least.Especialy when using the bathroom....And the Dizzy spells as well and Cant gain weight. At times i Just wanted this to be over with YOU KNOW leave here this is exstremly difficult to deal with when you are poor and i HAVE TO EAT WHAT I CAN to survive I mean Just that AND im lucky that I found a place to stay(a room that takes most of my SSI AND NO BATH or shower just a sink.).I m Glad i GOT out of that Nursing Center They intialy are Not a good Group of People but there were a frew that geinuinly cared....In this end i wonder Just how long I got to be here i realy dont care to Much Either way its going to be continue Hell.But my Dr is the One who got me thinking I should live and thats gave me Strenght to Try to keep going on...While i was in the Hospital I caught Covid along with the surgery .One Night WHILE ON THE PAIN pills i CALLED TO THE Nurse who was walking past my Room, you know scared and alone thinking I would die with (that dam tub in my mouth) just needed a little asurance (You Know) that I would be alright After the Surgry,She kept going as if she did not hear me but i know she did because she look right at me,as she move on down the hall i heard her tell another Nurse in a somewhat whisper " not going in there ,im dont know what to say to him and he is dying" More than any fear through out this entire exsperience i had never Knew such aloness and saddnes and fear at one time.So i guess you all can say Im lucky to be here Now! I wish you all WELL keep up the fight especial If you are fortunate to have those that Love you then I would say that Fight is worth it! Peace

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