Thank you Amanda, I waited a couple of days to respond as I wanted to see what is or is not working. Yes, I have mantras and affirmations, and I print off and post in areas of the house that I can see them often. Most of my mantras, etc. start with wording which is believable for me. "I am willing to release/accept/open the way to..." - whatever ending is for what I want to happen.
My biggest challenge has been that at times I have felt guilty - as a holistic practitioner "I should know better" So self judgement was huge. I now allow others to help me both with physical help and with allowing myself to be vulnerable and truthful. "yes, today is a crappy day, but I'm looking forward to tomorrow!" Changes? yes! I am not owning the pain, and therefore in that moment, I find it somehow isnt as important. Difficult to explain without sounding arrogant, but it just doesnt seem to be holding me hostage in the same way. When I start to control my life/health I turn to this "prayer"
Good Morning Sasha, this is God (or Universe/Spirit/God of your understanding)
I will be handing your problems today.
I do not need your help.
Have a good day
God/Universe/Spirit