@renee11 Here is something that the psychologist who did clinical hypnosis suggested. Choose a "safe place" for yourself where you can go in your mind to be calm. For me, that was a physical place outside in a mountain meadow, but inside a geodesic dome that was open to the outside elements. Inside it was a wood carving of a dolphin and a tree stump carved into a chair. It is a real place and I had pictures of it that I took with me on my surgery day. You are safe and protected inside your safe place, and remember to breathe slow deep relaxing breaths. I will be sending you my good thoughts on Monday. You may want to take some pictures with you of things you love to have something else to think about on Monday.