I am so very sorry to hear this! I am always here if you need someone to talk to, please reach out!! I have no idea why it's gone smooth so far but the thought of tapering further honestly does scare me no matter how badly I want to be off of it. I miss life so much before ativan but it did help I will not lie. There was a time I couldn't sleep at all. I wish you the best and happy new year to you