Greetings and a happy new year wish to you. I didn't tell my doctor about suicidal ideation because I don't want to be forced into a hospitalization. I won't kill myself, but not staying alive for myself, but do not want to leave my husband, children and grandchildren that way. My nightmares were dealt with by being prescribed Prazosin which is a high blood pressure medicine that is given to veterans experiencing nightmares and who have PTSD. This never worked for me, in fact, made my nightmares worse, like horror story type dreams. I asked to be tapered due to a move to another state where, even though benzos are type 4 medications, they might be impossible to be prescribed by a doctor here. I didn't even try because I don't want to be labeled a drug addict.