Thank you, this community means a lot to me. I kicked all other social media to the curb now check in here once a day. I really appreciate the information and support that I have received and hope to be there for others that have experienced these personal tragedies. There is hope, and it needs to be shared in a safe way.
So thankful that I finally found it! It was recommended to me by the National Pancreatic Foundation, they too have been helpful.