Just checking back in. It has been a difficult 2 weeks! We did not have any kind of service---I thought about it, but I am just too exhausted. His family is all too far away to be here---if they wanted to come they should have come before his passing. We have a few close friends in the area, but they all understand. I am hanging in there most days. Yesterday I started taking pictures off his phone before I had it disconnected. That left me crying most of the day. Today not much better. I thought after losing both my kids that there were no more tears---but God just keeps making more. Hopefully after the holidays are over I can figure out what my new "normal" will be and I can put the pieces together.
For now, I have the closets and drawers emptied. Between Christmas and the first of the year, weather permitting, most of it will go to the Salvation Army. There are lots and lots of warm clothing that is badly needed there.
Christmas Eve, I will go to a girl friend's house where we will eat and drink wine and enjoy each other--she is blessed to still have her daughter and they are very close. It will be a fun evening. Then, my grands and great grands will be over for Christmas. I have a prime rib roast ($$$ they had better appreciate it!) My grand daughter-in-love has been on a keto diet for a long time and lost a close to 100# so I am making a keto cheese cake so she can enjoy the dessert. Several gifts for the littles--age 6 and 3---
I am trying to put the pieces together---but when I am alone, all I want to do is cry.
There are lots of activities in our little community but I just have not felt like participating. I cannot handle a crowd yet.

Jan. 1 will be the start of the new year---and my new life. I have some things planned that I want to do, and will put my big girl panties on and move forward.

Hugs to all---I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and prosperous and healthy 2022~~~
Jurhee Ivy aka TexasTribble (that was one of my pups that has gone to the Rainbow Bridge)